Sister to Sister talk {Tag: Chie}

[xxmintostarxx]

As she was walking through the forest area, she was taken in by the scent of the wonderful flowers and calming wind. It was flowing through her hair, and felt as though it was very calming and very serene. The flower scents were very beautiful and she wished that one day, her perfume was going to be a similar scent like the roses or daisies. She felt as though this would be the perfect place to sit down and relax, and just be alone for a bit. Ever since she arrived at the school, she still had flashbacks to father yelling at her because of her sexual orientation. Luckily, her sisters did accept quickly, but, it take a long time for father to accept Karissa. She remembered words such as, "How will you be a role-model for your sisters by kissing girls.. a woman should fall for a man, not the same gender." She remembered telling her father that she will be turning an age where she will go on with her own life. The flashback stopped, and she started to lay down in the grass, and looked at the sky. Perhaps someone could talk to her, like one of her sisters.. 

[disneywinxheart]

Chie was surprised to find that her sister out in the middle of the forest. It wasnt' really her taste, in fact she wasn't a big fan of bugs or forests in general. But it seemed as of late that her sister was acting strange. Her shoes hit the ground, not loud but enough to make sure that someone knew she was there before the brown haired girl looked at her sister from above. "Karissa?"

[xxmintostarxx]

She was laying there, and she is hearing some birds in the sky, as was whistling to them and was humming to the sounds, as hearing those nature sounds was making her feel secure. As she was humming to the birds' chirps, she was did hear someone else coming into the forest, and it was the sound of shoes, and the sound of the shoes did sound very familiar. She eyed the person and it was Chie, her sister, as she was relived that it was not some random student in the school who was walking around in the forest. She looked up at her and waved with a small sigh. "Hey, Chie. I've been having some flashbacks of father yelling at me because of my orientation.. will be fine if I talk about it with you? I am still confused as to why he is confused because of me thinking of women as hot figures. I mean, do you think I am a bad role-model to you?" She then started to feel heated tears coming down her eyes as she was still having that flashback once again. She hated when father yelled thrashed at her because of her orientation.. and to this day, her feelings are still hurt. Luckily, mother did tell him to have her love whoever she wants to love, and father still loved her. Karissa was just confused as to why father is not accepting during the confession, and had to accept weeks later.

[disneywinxheart]

"Whoa, whoa," Chie tried to calm down her sister. She wasn't good with situations like this. She hated seeing people crying, especially her family. Chie took a seat beside her sister and frowned, not sure what to think of what to say. "A role-model, well, I don't know how to respond to that, You don't have to be a role-model to me. I mean yeah you are the oldest but you should be whoever you want to be."

She didn't know the whole situation but she found it hard to believe that her dad would be that harsh to someone. He was their father

[xxmintostarxx]

As she was looking up to her sister, she could tell that this was going to be a long conversation between the two sisters. She looked up at her and gave out a giant sigh as she saw her trying to calm her down, and she was slowly trying to talk without crying, and saw that she was listening to her vent. She heard her sitting next to her and saw her being sad and saw her listening to her venting about father being mean to her because of what happened that very day when she confessed to father personally. As she heard that she was speechless about her being a bad role-model, she felt as though some panic was going through her system, as she did not want to be a bad one to her sisters, especially if the oldest likes-likes women, and then she heard her saying that she can be whatever she wants. "Well, I wish I can feel that way about myself. I don't want father to think that I am a bad role model the rest of the family." She said, and looked down at the ground, and sighed. "I mean, besides me being a lesbian, I am a very caring person and I would sacrifice my life to rescue a person in danger. I just want him to focus on the good things about me.." She said, and grabs a daisy and starts to play with the petals, as playing with flowers is one of her therapeutic things to get things off her mind, besides talking about her situation to family members.

[disneywinxheart]

Chie frowned, that was the problem with her father, he always thought about the hero aspect. He was kind in his own way, but maybe it was just a set of values. "Dad is just...different." that was a way to describe him. Her brown eyes narrowed a bit and sadly. "I think Dad is just...scared to see you grow-up." Why did it have to be her to have this conversation. She had never been in love. In fact no guy had ever even tried to ask her out.

"You threw him with a big change, I think he just needs time to accept it. He loves you."

[xxmintostarxx]

She saw that she was frowning over the fact that she wished that her and father would be on right terms when it comes to her liking the same gender. She thought that him being a hero and having a man saving a woman like mother is somewhat entertaining to hear, as she did like hearing his stories. She did want to say that women can save themselves and of course, others as well, as she that aspect did teach her to stand up for herself. The only thing she was scared about was saving herself if someone does throw a rock at her because of her orientation. She did think that her and father should at least, still talk about her orientation and what to say to a girl when confessing her love to a person once she falls for a girl. She thought that having heroic values were important in the family household, which is of course, important. She did hear her comment about her father being different from mother, and she nods, as though she does agree with that statement. "Yeah, I know. Having him being different from mother.. is somewhat nice. At least his stories are entertaining..." She said, as she was trying to be positive about thoughts about father being brave. When she heard her mentioning that father may be scared of her growing up really quickly, she did open her eyes as though she never thought about that. She was the oldest of the family, and had to protect her siblings from any danger. "Yeah.. I guess. I just hope that he won't cry if I meet a girl.." She said, with a small sigh; as soon as her other statement got mentioned that he would take time to accept her being a lesbian, she shivered. "I wonder how long it would take for him to process that I like women..." She said to her, with another sigh, as she hoped that he would get it quickly, as love is love. She was still glad that father still loved her, and gave out a sigh that was more calming.

[disneywinxheart]

"Dad is dad." Chie said, "You are you." If it was anything, she could at least give a little bit of comfort. "Just because he believes different things doesn't mean you have to change, he may never accept little things like that but in the end, i think he still loves you. Mom certainly doesn't care and neither do I or our other sisters."

[xxmintostarxx]

She heard those words, and knew that she and father were two different people. Their thoughts were going to be different, of course, and their thoughts of meeting someone was going to be different as well. Her words were quiet comforting though, and she did listen. She then started to feel a little better and thought that just because her dad does believe in one thing does not mean that she has change. She can have her own life with a girl, of course, after meeting the right one for her. "Yeah, he just has to get used to me loving another girl..." She said, with a small smile appearing on her face. She then heard her mentioning that father still loves her and her smile slowly starts to grow. She is glad that father does at least, love her. "Yeah, I'm grateful for father at least loving me.." She said, with a small sigh. She was also glad that mother or her sisters did not care about her being a lesbian, and she was honored for sisters and a mother who would accept her. "Chie, thank you very much..for accepting me.." She thanked her and hugs her gently.

[disneywinxheart]

"What?" Chie titled her head to the side and smirked. "Of course I accept you silly. I don't care if you like boys, girls or cats." She frowned. "Though it would be a bit weird if you wanted to date a cat." She gave a small laugh and picked up some of the flowers, and plucked them. "I think you are lucky though, you already know what you want. I bet you have tons of girls out there waiting for you. There's no boy who would want me."

[xxmintostarxx]

She did hear her mentioning that she does accept her liking pretty much anyone of either the different gender or same gender, but, she felt more comfortable with the same gender, which is females, and she gave her sister a small hug. "Thank you.."  She did not mind having any male friends, and of course, she and her cousin, Kanon are getting along. So, she hoped that finding friends, whether male or female would accept her the way she is, as she thought of females as hot figures. She did giggle at her sister's comment when she did mention that she would not even care if she would even date a cat. That, she had to admit was pretty amusing. "Well, dating a cat could be weird..." She commented, with a small nervous chuckle, as she thought that randomly came out of the blue. She did hear her other comment on her being lucky that she knew what she wanted in life, which will be a long, healthy relationship with the right woman, as she did not want an abusive relationship at all. "Yeah, I know that finding the right woman would be a while.." She said, and did nudge her sister playfully at her other comment of her saying that no other guy would want her. "For that, be yourself and I am sure that someone will find you attractive. You are a very nice young lady and I'm sure someone would go for the athletic type." She said, and gave her a small wink. "If you need advice on love and relationships, you can always come to me." She said. She then inhaled and exhaled as she still held onto the flower. She plucks out some petals and leaves them onto the stem and points her fingers at them and some calm wind blows through them as she slowly makes them flow into another direction.

[disneywinxheart]

"Why are you so worried about this?" Chie asked, she wasn't angry for sure but it seemed that her sister was already worried about this. "Sis, I understand you are worried, but you shouldn't make your life so troubled by thinking about this." Chie crossed her arms over her chest. "It's not healthy." She wasn't trying to be disapproving of her sister's orientation. "It's fine to worry about other things too."

[xxmintostarxx]

As soon as that one question came up regarding her worrying about her orientation, she thought of a reason why as to why she is feeling this way about this. "Well, the reason why I am worried is because... you know how people would not consider some gay and lesbians, "normal", I just don't want people to think that I am more than just a lesbian. I mean, I am a very kind person and will help others in need. I am just worried about not being accepted because of my orientation.." She answered, in a whimpering tone. She knew that worrying about this a little too much would make her feel very sick and not go to classes at all. But, during the school year, she would have to accept that some people would not accept her because of her liking other women, in a sensual way. She then heard her advice about her not worrying about this, and she nods. "Yeah, I know, I just hope that I will be accepted for who I am as a person.." She said, with a small sigh. She even heard that it was alight to worry about other things such as homework from a teacher or food burning in a microwave by accident. "Yeah, you're right.." She replied, with another small sigh. She knew that worrying about other things was just as important..

[disneywinxheart]

Chie was trying to remain calm. "If they don't accept you because of it then its their fault. You shouldn't be worried to make friends because you are worried they will reject you because you are lesbian. Everyone has their own opinions about what is right and wrong. It shouldn't effect their view on you and on becoming friends."

She sighed. "Oh and if they make you cry, I'll beat the crap out of them." she punched her fist to show she meant it.

[xxmintostarxx]

When she was hearing her advice, Karissa looked up at her and smiled. "Yeah, you're right.. there are going to be people out there who won't accept me. I am, what I am." She said, with a somewhat confident tone in her voice. She thought that making friends should not be so bad. After all, people should not care of what happens behind closed doors. She knew that she would have to respect people's comments on what relationships should be like, but, respect goes a long way in life. She the saw that she was determined to beat the ones that were going to be mean to her and knew that she meant it. "Thank you, Chie." She thanked her sister and hugged her.